Our Story

Just another normal day. I woke up, went to school, did homework, went home, cooked for my sister, went online. And ugh, that bitch at school. I remember when we were best friends. But she ruined it just because her boyfriend had a crush on me. One thing different - I had a friend request from one of the hottest guys in school! Who wouldn`t accept?! I talked to him. We talked and talked about the most random things. He`s actually a pretty nice guy. At school the next day, I saw him. I smiled at him and couldn`t help but blush… Wait.. Blush?! That`s so unlike me. What was wrong with me? Maybe it was just too hot. Yet again… When is it ever hot here?

Halloween! I stayed out almost the whole night. When I got home, guess who`s online? We talked for a while and unexpectedly, he asked me out. I was shocked, surprised, confused, is it really him? He`s hot! Of course I said yes! After I said yes, I thought to myself, “oh no..” I completely forgot that biatch`s best friend has a crush on him. That will cause more problems considering she went out with my crush last year…

Yeup.. I was right.. But spit on my locker?! That`s just low! When I got home to talk to him, he seemed worried. I guess he knew something would happen. That made me happy. We talked and talked for hours online then on the phone. He would call me in the morning to wake me up. Everytime I was unhappy, it seemed he could tell from the way I said “hi.” Our life story is way too alike, it seems lik he understands everything. The things he tells me, the song he wrote for me.. Things I`ll never forget. “143 637″

Today was my best friend`s boyfriend`s birthday. We had a bonfire at the beach. It was freezing cold even though it was so hot in the afternoon, I had a waterfight. Which of course, made me more cold. I met him up a few hours later, coincidentally at the bus stop. We went together to the beach. He still had some cake on his shirt from lunch and I was still wet, but he still hugged me, knowing I was cold without me saying a word. He made smores for me and hugged me almost the whole time. I kissed him on the cheek. He seemed.. Surprised. I was dissapointed when he didn`t kiss me back. But he kissed me before I left, I smiled like an idiot all the way home.

We went on this way only a few weeks, I became self-conscious. What`s up with his Myspace playlist?! “Say Goodbye,” “Who`s Loving Her Now,” “Missing You.” And why is he always around his ex?! I was in too much of a bad mood to talk to him. But does he even care? He talked to me about it.. And I broke down. We argued for a while. He said he couldn`t take it anymore.. We broke up. I told him I was going to take a shower. But I didn`t have the strength to walk all the way to the shower, I broke down on the bathroom floor crying like an idiot for an hour until I gathered up enough strength to walk to the shower, still crying. The mood I was feeling was “Cry - Rihanna” because every word in it described my feelings at that moment.

When I finally got myself together, I came back out.  He left messages, telling me he wants to talk to me, he wants me back. I started to cry again. Why is he doing this to me?! We talked again, he said he wants me back.. But I was scared.. What will happen next time? Will it hurt even more? But hearing all the things he said, I couldn`t help it. I let him back in.

We were happy again. The first day wasn`t the same, but we got ourselves back together. I felt something so strong, I guess I had to call it love. It was just like before, like nothing has changed. Only the feelings have gotten stronger and stronger. This is really the first time I didn`t lose interest in my boyfriend and actually gained interest. Our first date, to the movies. It was a scary movie. However, with him it was actually funny. Probably because of his random outbursts and making fun of me while I got scared when he would get scared too.

Wow. I really suck at making stuffed animals. The duck I made in Home Ec.`s head seemed to be dislocated. When he saw it, of course he made fun of me. But he kept it anyways. That night, he told me he put it on top of his drawer. It felt like every little thing he said to me made me like him more.

Our one month anniversary!!! I was so excited. We tried to decide on a place to go, but it somehow seemed like he didn`t want to.. He said, “let`s just stay home.” I waited for him to go online that day, he didn`t until nighttime. I asked him about his day and he said he went out.. Should I be angry? I didn`t say anything about it.. It seems his friend, Ryan has been hanging around me more and more. It`s pretty obvious when he falls for a girl and I`m pretty sure he`s fallen for me. He just won`t stop following me! What`s wrong with him? While Ryan seems to be getting closer and closer to me, it seems he`s getting farther and farther… I can tell he`s getting jealous but… Why isn`t he doing anything? Whenever I tried to talk to him online, he signed off right away. When I call him, he didn`t pick up. I never see him at school or afterschool.

I was walking to my class when I saw him. He hugged me, then kissed me. I knew something was different with that kiss. Two days later, we officially broke up. I didn`t cry. I guess I saw it coming. Or I`ve already cried too much. The day after we broke up, our friend, Genifer, told me he`s always been a player and has liked another girl since sixth grade. He saw the conversation and was furiated.
Why would you even believe her?!
Who said I believe her?!
I just know you would believe that kinda shit.
Wtf does it matter anyway?
…..

We said we`d be friends, but it feels more like enemies. After the enemy stage, we were more like strangers. Of course I still had feelings for him, but I knew another talk would just turn out to be another fight. One day, he suddenly IMed me. He told me he went for a hospital check-up. He has cancer. I couldn`t stop crying. I told my best friends but they didn`t know how to help me. I didn`t figure out until later that I was the only one he told. A few days later, he went to the hospital for another check-up. It turned out it was an accident.. A month later, we talked again. I was about to tell him how I feel because I really can`t take it anymore. Also.. If I don`t say it now I may never have a chance, my mom told me we`re moving to Hong Kong. But he told me he fell in love with a girl named Selina. I couldn`t do anything but help him out.