Painful One-Sided Love

Before I tell you my love story, first I have to tell you a fact about my religion. It is said that if you married someone with the same last name as yours, no matter if your related or not, as long as your last names are the same it would be considered as taboo. I knew that and yet I wasn't able to control my feelings when I fell in love with him. It was really hard because I believed that we'll never be able to be together or he will never accept me since we had the same last names. One of his his best friend confesses his love towards me and I refused just because I have already fallen in love with his closes friend. It was a coincidence when he and I both signed up for a field trip and ended up sitting side by side. To me it was a dream come true, we talked and little did I know I was fallen in love deeper with him. Somehow all of a sudden he confesses to me that he too have fallen for me, this just seemed all to have been a dream too real to be true. But it was reality and as time passes our relationship grew stronger. I was aware that our relationship wasn't going to last long so I tried my best to do everything I could before it was too late. On end of the day of a friend's farewell party he told me that it wasn't right for us to continue anymore. At first no tears came but as he walked away from me, my eyes was streaming with many tears that he wasn't able to see any of it at all. Until now I learned that he probably never loved me yet I didn't regret dating him because I didn't want all those memories that we both shared to be painful memories being kept. Still I'm not ready to have him around me acting as if we don't know each other, so I have decided to run away as far as I can to see if those feelings will disappear. Maybe they won't but at least, I gave it a try, it won't be a pain to try without not trying at all. I'll cry beneath the moon the stars but never will you see my tears at all. A part of me is gone now my only option is to search for my other half again.

Waiting for God's Provision

My name is Camille I am 21 I can say I have the patience to wait for someone I really love. It started when I was 13 year old I met a guy named Lynus and he is my classmate in vocational class "Bible Study" when I first saw him I laid my eyes on him. Their is something in him that I really wanted to know. His kind of mysterious thingee guy his skinny tall guy a simple one but the aura was kind a great most of the girls in our church has a crush on him. Well he is good looking as well like a heartthrob ehehehee.. 

We spent the whole summer together as a classmate and after the summer we went back to school for a new high school life. We got busy and my whole life change when I enter my high school days.. I never went back to the church for almost four years because I got traumatic experience with my personality "My DAD rejected me!" well I'm a unwanted baby that's why when I'm in high school I tried to seek for my fathers identity.. and that's what's happen.. Anyways... back to the story. ehehehee.. 

When I left the church Lynus had his on life  and I didn't know that he began to fall in love to Fides one of the new gal in the church I met her before I left to church.. Then they began their love story when the elders try to tease them and thought that they're meant for each other and Lynus began to falling in love with Fides.. 

After four years I went back to the church that was year of 2005 month of May. Lynus is the one who welcomed me back and greeted me. I was so shock at first cause he don't remember me. ahahahahha... Then we began to known each other I became active to church again and participate to a lot of activities we have. Then everything goes well. Lynus and I became a good friends and texting each other we have this understanding and feelings for each other. Like mutual understanding it's like were having a relationship but there's no commitment on it and anytime it will end so most of the time I enjoy every single moments we have.I felt

like I was in a fairy tale hoping it would never end. 

Then one night he confess to me that he still pursuing his love for Fides and I was so hurt by that confession. Were just playing a game a game that Lynus is waiting for Fides and I waiting for him. It's really hurt whenever he confess what he really feels about Fides and he told me that Fides have a boyfriend and still he loves him so I got hurt, badly hurt so I turn back a little I step back in his life and I try my best to be brave on what happened we lost communication for a month. He became the president of the Youth and got busy. 

Year ending of Lynus presidency we got in touch again and talk about us.. He confess that Fides choose his boyfriend and let go of him I told him it's okay I know he's hurt and I comforted him. After a month he became tough person I know.. He changed a bit specially to other youth most of the time he don't mingle with us and now he does.

Most of the people who knows our story says that we will end up together as a couple. As of now I can feel he want's me back the way we were before.. But we entrust everything to the Lord for the future. 

Right now he is graduating and waiting for the right time to settle and as for me now busy in work and vice-president of youth I do teaching in St. Francis Square as voice coach and at the same time National youth treasurer.

Both of us waiting for the Provision of God... 

Thanks for Reading.. Hope to Inspire you..

Our Story

Just another normal day. I woke up, went to school, did homework, went home, cooked for my sister, went online. And ugh, that bitch at school. I remember when we were best friends. But she ruined it just because her boyfriend had a crush on me. One thing different - I had a friend request from one of the hottest guys in school! Who wouldn`t accept?! I talked to him. We talked and talked about the most random things. He`s actually a pretty nice guy. At school the next day, I saw him. I smiled at him and couldn`t help but blush… Wait.. Blush?! That`s so unlike me. What was wrong with me? Maybe it was just too hot. Yet again… When is it ever hot here?

Halloween! I stayed out almost the whole night. When I got home, guess who`s online? We talked for a while and unexpectedly, he asked me out. I was shocked, surprised, confused, is it really him? He`s hot! Of course I said yes! After I said yes, I thought to myself, “oh no..” I completely forgot that biatch`s best friend has a crush on him. That will cause more problems considering she went out with my crush last year…

Yeup.. I was right.. But spit on my locker?! That`s just low! When I got home to talk to him, he seemed worried. I guess he knew something would happen. That made me happy. We talked and talked for hours online then on the phone. He would call me in the morning to wake me up. Everytime I was unhappy, it seemed he could tell from the way I said “hi.” Our life story is way too alike, it seems lik he understands everything. The things he tells me, the song he wrote for me.. Things I`ll never forget. “143 637″

Today was my best friend`s boyfriend`s birthday. We had a bonfire at the beach. It was freezing cold even though it was so hot in the afternoon, I had a waterfight. Which of course, made me more cold. I met him up a few hours later, coincidentally at the bus stop. We went together to the beach. He still had some cake on his shirt from lunch and I was still wet, but he still hugged me, knowing I was cold without me saying a word. He made smores for me and hugged me almost the whole time. I kissed him on the cheek. He seemed.. Surprised. I was dissapointed when he didn`t kiss me back. But he kissed me before I left, I smiled like an idiot all the way home.

We went on this way only a few weeks, I became self-conscious. What`s up with his Myspace playlist?! “Say Goodbye,” “Who`s Loving Her Now,” “Missing You.” And why is he always around his ex?! I was in too much of a bad mood to talk to him. But does he even care? He talked to me about it.. And I broke down. We argued for a while. He said he couldn`t take it anymore.. We broke up. I told him I was going to take a shower. But I didn`t have the strength to walk all the way to the shower, I broke down on the bathroom floor crying like an idiot for an hour until I gathered up enough strength to walk to the shower, still crying. The mood I was feeling was “Cry - Rihanna” because every word in it described my feelings at that moment.

When I finally got myself together, I came back out.  He left messages, telling me he wants to talk to me, he wants me back. I started to cry again. Why is he doing this to me?! We talked again, he said he wants me back.. But I was scared.. What will happen next time? Will it hurt even more? But hearing all the things he said, I couldn`t help it. I let him back in.

We were happy again. The first day wasn`t the same, but we got ourselves back together. I felt something so strong, I guess I had to call it love. It was just like before, like nothing has changed. Only the feelings have gotten stronger and stronger. This is really the first time I didn`t lose interest in my boyfriend and actually gained interest. Our first date, to the movies. It was a scary movie. However, with him it was actually funny. Probably because of his random outbursts and making fun of me while I got scared when he would get scared too.

Wow. I really suck at making stuffed animals. The duck I made in Home Ec.`s head seemed to be dislocated. When he saw it, of course he made fun of me. But he kept it anyways. That night, he told me he put it on top of his drawer. It felt like every little thing he said to me made me like him more.

Our one month anniversary!!! I was so excited. We tried to decide on a place to go, but it somehow seemed like he didn`t want to.. He said, “let`s just stay home.” I waited for him to go online that day, he didn`t until nighttime. I asked him about his day and he said he went out.. Should I be angry? I didn`t say anything about it.. It seems his friend, Ryan has been hanging around me more and more. It`s pretty obvious when he falls for a girl and I`m pretty sure he`s fallen for me. He just won`t stop following me! What`s wrong with him? While Ryan seems to be getting closer and closer to me, it seems he`s getting farther and farther… I can tell he`s getting jealous but… Why isn`t he doing anything? Whenever I tried to talk to him online, he signed off right away. When I call him, he didn`t pick up. I never see him at school or afterschool.

I was walking to my class when I saw him. He hugged me, then kissed me. I knew something was different with that kiss. Two days later, we officially broke up. I didn`t cry. I guess I saw it coming. Or I`ve already cried too much. The day after we broke up, our friend, Genifer, told me he`s always been a player and has liked another girl since sixth grade. He saw the conversation and was furiated.
Why would you even believe her?!
Who said I believe her?!
I just know you would believe that kinda shit.
Wtf does it matter anyway?
…..

We said we`d be friends, but it feels more like enemies. After the enemy stage, we were more like strangers. Of course I still had feelings for him, but I knew another talk would just turn out to be another fight. One day, he suddenly IMed me. He told me he went for a hospital check-up. He has cancer. I couldn`t stop crying. I told my best friends but they didn`t know how to help me. I didn`t figure out until later that I was the only one he told. A few days later, he went to the hospital for another check-up. It turned out it was an accident.. A month later, we talked again. I was about to tell him how I feel because I really can`t take it anymore. Also.. If I don`t say it now I may never have a chance, my mom told me we`re moving to Hong Kong. But he told me he fell in love with a girl named Selina. I couldn`t do anything but help him out.

My Sad Love Story

So one day my best friend Bailey and I were walking home from school and we were headed toward her house cause i was goin to sleep over...  Well there is this boy that i have liked since 2nd grade and i still like him...  Him, Bailey and i are really close and that night i had told him that i liked him over a text message cause he wouldn't answer his phone...  In the morning we were watching the news and it said that a 13 year old boy had died inn a car crash.  They said his name was Jake.  I looked at Bailey with tears streeming down my face, we held each other until our arms got sore...  One of Jake's best guy friend's came up to me and said that Jake really liked me but wasn't sure if I liked him so he wasn't goin to ask me out.  i was hurt and i wanted to scream.  Ever since that day whenever i liked someone i tell them right away cause i don't want to go through the same thing twice and it has worked for me cause the guys like me back.  Just don't hold back and tell people how you feel about them.