At last I did it!

Well, I don´t remember my first time very well. I did it with a girl I had been dating some time ago, she was very uninhibited and was not a virgin and she wanted me to lose my virginity. I was 24 but did not specially want to do it, cause I was satisfied enough with wanking her and myself and also I was afraid to get her pregnant(though at the same time I thought it was high time I lost it). We went to my parents´ country house that evening and we did it. I don´t remember that night very well, but It was rather clumsy and tasteless. I thought "And this is all there is to it?" So that occassion was not something special for me at all, it was just more sex "with a little change". I had expected much more from that but I found it quite disappointing, though at the same time I felt "fulfilled" in a way, since I had been so shy all my previous years that I sensed it was high time I did it. Thinking in retrospect now, I don´t think that the first time has to be necessarily special, it is simply that there has to be a first time,it may be good or bad and it doesn´t really matter.