I had returned from summer camp in upstate New York where a girl my age had taken me into an empty bunk house while all the other kids were singing around the camp fire. She got me to pull my pants down and rub my cock against her bush. It didn't go any further than that, but it sure fuled my fantasy life and when I got back home, I saw an opportunity to make that fantasy a reality. Lucy lived down the block from me in a suburb of New York City. She developed before the other girls and had a set of breasts which were the subject of many an after school gathering. There wasn't a boy I knew who didn't have some kind of brag aobut how he was going to 'feel her up'. I was pretty quite about it, but I secret that no one else knew - Lucy had a crush on me - and I had my own plan brewing. I had heard that when a woman was on her period she couldn't get pregnant. After a particularly hot make out session, I decided to present this idea to Lucy and see if she'd be willing to go along. It took some convincing. Mainly I kept telling her how good it would feel. But all the while I'm convincing, I'm also feeling bad becuase I knew I was never going to ask her to be my girlfriend, and I knew tha's what she wanted. But that part of me wasn't running the show. So we made a plan and she let me know when she started her next period. I knew a secret place in a neigbor's yard because I had used it as a hiding spot during our many games of ring-a-leev-e-oh, cowboys and Indians, WWII and hide and seek. It was perfect, it was hidden and it was all ours that day. She lay down on her back and I pulled her pants and undies down to her knees and did the same to my own. I was rock hard and ready to go. I pushed, she arched, but with those pants just half way down her legs there just wasn't enough spread and that made me push just a bit too hard and she said it hurt .... so I stopped. I said let's just wait until we can do this in a more comfortable place. The next day, when I got home from school, my mom was gone and I knew she'd be out for a few hours. I ran down to Lucy's and told her come on over. We lay on my bed, this time completely naked which in itself was a revalation. Feeling her breasts agains my chest, her soft skin, her legs wrapping around me - mmmmm - I entered her slowly. It was the softest, warmest, sweetest place I had ever been and I loved every minute of it. While we were at it I asked her if it felt good and she said not yet but then I had my orgasm and I lay there, insude, in a blissful state. I looked down and saw there was blood all over. I asked if she was alright and she said she was so we cleaned up and then she went home before my mother returned. We did a couple more times after that and she liked it - but then we stopped. I think she had doubts and anyway, I wasn't asking her to be my girl and I know if I had we could have kept right on doing it. After that, I couldn't find anyone who would have sex with me for several more years - back then there just weren't that many kids my age having sex. Finally, when I was 15 I met a 16 year old who was into it and from that day on, making love was a part of my life. But the thing was, I felt bad about Lucy for a long time. I knew I had used her and every so often I'd even have bad dreams about it. Then, one day when I was in my 30s and visiting some friends San Francisco, I went to a party and there she was, with her husband her first child. I took her aside and I apologized. We talked about that time and what it meant to each of us. She was gracious and and understanding and I felt a weight lifted. Forgiveness is a powerful thing.
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