I am 15 years of age and I met this girl when I was 14. I never thought that I would fall in love at 15 but it happened. I am a chinese guy and she is Indian. I never spotted her before even though she been in the same school as me all this time. I got introduced to her through one of my friend which is a girl.
That year she was in the same science class as me. We didn't talk much at first but there was always this attraction between us two. Something which is hard to describe. It has been half way through the year since I known her, and both of us was chosen to go on a science trip together. None of my guy friends was picken for this trip so I was alone with a bunch of girls. So I had to talk to my girl friends and me and the girl got to know each other. The trip was really great, we had some quality time just the two of us and we learnt stuff as well. I started hanging out with her and started to leave some of my guy friends. They called me a traitor and unloyal for laeving them but I thought it was worth it. On the 15th May I asked her out. I had a one on one conversation with her, she asked me what I wanted for my birthday( which is the 18th May) and with all my courage i said to her " I want you for my birthday, I want you to be my girlfriend." I remembered her face when I asked her out. She was blushing and really pretty. She said yes to me but only on one conditon. That condition was that we have to keep it a secret from our family but our friends are allowed to know. I agreed to this condition and we went out. We was very very happy when we was boyfriend and girlfriend, everything went smoothly and both of us got our grades. I found out that we both started liking each other on the science trip and we have so many similar interests. Until one day when we was hugging and kissing her brother saw. We let go of each other imediately and pretended nothing happend and wish he didnt see anything. Her sly brother pretended he didn't but he actaully did. During that last month of us two going out, my ex-girlfriend was different and I knew straight away there was something wrong. I asked her did someone in her family found out and she replied that her brother knew about us. Her brother blackmailed her and threaten to tell her parents. If her parents knew then they would move her to another school and I don't want that to happen. She was scared that any time her parents would know and doesnt want to lie to her parents anymore. It was her first time she lied to her parents and its all beacuse of me. I felt guilty and i suggested that we split up. I thought that it was okay that we splitted up and that it was only a light relationship, but to my surprise it actually effected me alot. At first it was lke a dream but then everytime I go near her I wanted to hold her but I wasnt allowed to. My feelings are so mixed up now. After 6 months have passed I thought I have forgotten her but I haven't. My brohter and one of my best friend told me she still likes me but pretending not to. All the feelings came flooding backand its killing me. Im feeling depress and dont know what to do. There is such a big difference between us now. Me and my ex hardly talk now, only talk when its about work. It seems like we are on two different planets!
From Derek
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