I could have been the one

i am the kind of girl who thinks of love as something sacred and when i enter a relationship, i make sure that it would last a long time. When i was 15 years old, i fell in love with one of my guy friends. At the time, he was also in love with me so we became a couple not long enough. We kept that relationship for a long time. Four years and four months to be exact. Within that 4 years, i can say that i was happy. At least i was. He, on the other hand, was starting to be someone i do not know as we go along our way. He started hurting me physically and emotionally. I  came to a point where I got used to all the beating. Worse is that he always asks money from me. At that time, i thought it was ok because i didn’t want to lose him. I WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM..

One day, another guy came my way. though he was younger than me he made me feel loved. he told me he was gonna take care of me and so i left the guy i was with for four years to be with the man who promised to love more than what the other can give.

And so our story started..that i can say is a relationship that i will forever cherish in my heart. it was fun. i’d sleepover at his house sometimes and he stays at our house until dawn. we were just laughing around, making fun of each other, their are times when we had serious talks and at night, we just lay in our bed (in my room) hugging each other and just saying i love you with one another and for me that was i called perfect. oh yes we argue. a lot. but we get to patch things up as quick as we could. i really love him and i thought he love as much…for me it was the best 7 months of my life..

One day, we argued. i slept. the next day when i woke up, he told me he didn’t love me anymore. i world came crashing down on me. i tried to call him but he wouldn’t answer. he was only sending text messages saying he never loved me. GOD. how can he tell me all of this? i have felt the love he has for me. i begged for him not to leave me but all he said was he don’t want me anymore. i even went to his house to beg. we were crying while i was asking him not to leave but he was so firm of his decision that he didn’t want me anymore. i was so devastated. i tried to kill myself. i can’t do anything anymore. then i heard the most heartbreaking truth of all of this..he couldn’t be with me now coz he has someone else already..they have been together while we were still together..it broke my heart into pieces..i cry myself to sleep every night..i love him faithfully and i know i can never love any other man the way i loved him..though he slaps in my face that he loves his new girl now, i am still stuck here where he left me..