I know i love you but do you love me....?

his name is Dom and he always loves the other girl but not me. i love him though he is the hottest guy in class he is so so so so so so nice and i wish he would realized he likes me too . we flirt every day and he just doesn't get it . and all the guys think Alyssa's  all that they think shes so nice and think shes so hot and i don't get it shes not that pretty not that athletic not any one of those to all the girls she is just another beep shes a brat and all the guys think shes so beautiful but really shes a  no joke it is so annoying i hate people like that i wish that when i woke up some day when im older i will  so Dom laying right beside me . will Dom and i work ever thing out or will he never realize ? and if Dom ever reads this it is true i do love you with all my heart! [ I'm 11 and in love people]

Torn between reason and feelings...

I've known him for several years now.  We went to college together, and now we are in grad school together in a new town, and I can't stop thinking that this is Not a coincidence.  When I finally grew the guts to talk to him Then, three years ago, and walked into the break room with some silly question and a smile ready for him I saw him with another girl... (btw I never liked her!  I was only thinking: why HER!!?? anyway)  They got married a few months later, and I made myself forget him, I knew that it is not right to break up happy families, happy couples in love, no matter what.  At that point I had somebody.  My senior year I met my future husband.

So a year later here we are in grad school!! I was so surprised, but happy to have someone I knew close by.  He seemed to be dedicated as ever to his marriage, and I was a happy newlywed too, and the times were nice and bright and happy... until...

My husband had to go to Iraq for a year.  I fell into Horrible depression - I had never felt sooo bad in my life!  ever!  I even diminished my goals in school and switched programs, just to make sure I do graduate, even if it is a weaker degree than originally planned for... I had suicidal thoughts, I gained weight, I became insecure and worthless.  I did not have many people around, because I was in a new town.  The sad thing was that my husband did not call much or send me messages or letters.  I wanted to share what was happening in my mind and in my heart with him,  but I never felt like he was near.  I was alone.

So I left town for the summer to be with my family, and I finally got better - happier, prettier, hopeful, independent, friendly, and attractive! :)  I did not need my husband anymore - I learned to be without him, and I do not want to let myself become so dependent on someones love Ever again!  The new school year was going to be excellent!

And that's when I became friends with my long forgotten crush! :) Turned out he divorced his wife - they had problems, as he said.  He was very sad about that, but it seemed like it was liberating and important to him. 

We became just that - friends.  We spent time together with mutual friends goofin' off, talking, joking around.  I loved those times!  I tried really hard to make every opportunity to be with my new friends.  I made many other new friends too, became active in different organizations, had so many hobbies that I barely had time for everything! I was so happy!  And as time got closer and closer to my husband coming back I felt exhilarated - my Love  was so close to being with me again, my happiness, my new family... 

But when he came back I realized I did not want him near.  He did not fit into my new life.  He wanted me for himself, it felt like.  He wanted me to spend days with his family, with him, doing things he likes, and for the first time I felt like I did not want to do those things!  I was a new person, and I did not want to change - I enjoyed the new me very much.  I realized that me and my husband did not have much in common at all - I did not like his jokes or conversation anymore, I did not want to watch his favorite shows or play his favorite games, and he did not seem to approve of much of what I thought was fun to do.  It was so strange to see just how clouded our perceptions of each other had been in the past.

I don't know when I realized I was in love, IN LOVE with my friend, but it was a very strange feeling - so forbidden, so inappropriate, but so peaceful.  I started counseling trying to figure out what was going on in my mind, why, and what to do.  I started to cheat on my husband - I started to have an affair, and I loved it.  I still am.  I have heard many people say that leaving a marriage for "a new love" is a very bad idea.  I do not quite understand why, but I do realize the key concepts to this rule... I want to say that He is not why I want to leave so much, but I am afraid He is.  This is not fair to Him, to my husband, but - you know what? - it is not fair to me either! I never thought this whole affair would hurt Me of us three more than anyone. I am tormented every day about what to do.  It may seem simple: if you love each other, then leave! But there are complicating factors: He is almost done with his graduate program and is leaving, He knows I am married. He is ready to move on.  He is looking for a big and fun job, for happiness.  I have just extended my program for another 3 years or so, so I am staying.  I am scared of regretting breaking up my marriage, but I Love him!  He does not know, at least I have not told him.  I do not know if he feels this about me either - I think if he did he would not tell me because I am married.

Please, forgive us.  We tried to resist our temptations, but we failed and fell into the blissful abyss of out affections...  I am hoping to see him tomorrow, cause my husband will be out of town.  I am a pig, but I do not care anymore - I feel happy when I am with Him...

My Sad Love Story

So one day my best friend Bailey and I were walking home from school and we were headed toward her house cause i was goin to sleep over...  Well there is this boy that i have liked since 2nd grade and i still like him...  Him, Bailey and i are really close and that night i had told him that i liked him over a text message cause he wouldn't answer his phone...  In the morning we were watching the news and it said that a 13 year old boy had died inn a car crash.  They said his name was Jake.  I looked at Bailey with tears streeming down my face, we held each other until our arms got sore...  One of Jake's best guy friend's came up to me and said that Jake really liked me but wasn't sure if I liked him so he wasn't goin to ask me out.  i was hurt and i wanted to scream.  Ever since that day whenever i liked someone i tell them right away cause i don't want to go through the same thing twice and it has worked for me cause the guys like me back.  Just don't hold back and tell people how you feel about them. 

Do you wait or move on?

I'm young and i fell for one of my best friend over a year ago, but we both had partners. he finally told me one day that he liked me, i said i couldn't because i had a boyfriend i cared dearly about. so we both just carried on being friends.

time pasted by and by. as we grew apart our lives changed incredibly different, but we spoke every few months, when we bumped into each other.

as we both broke up with our partners we began to speak on a regular basis. it came up to his birthday, i went to another party and my best friend went to his. as of the next day i saw her, she said he will not stop talking about you, it drove me crazy! i was confused but happy, because my feelings were still there. as we caught up more and more and we grew closer and closer, we decided to give it ago FINALLY. his ex found out we were together ( my ex friend) and she began to make up rumors and rumors to break us up. i fell hard really hard for him, i honestly never thought anyone could ever feel this way about another, id only saw it in movies. i couldn't take the abusive calls and messages from her and her friends anymore. we started to fight on regular basis and he cried please don't listen to her i love you. it was always in the back of my mind, her voice i tried so hard but she wouldn't go away. in the end he broke up with me because id drifted apart from him and he couldn't take us fighting anymore. he has a new girlfriend and i break my heart continuously day in and day out. i don't have the guts to tell him i still love him and want him back. i realised she was just playing games and i let her win. all i wish for his him to just appear back into my life. all i want to say to him is: I'm so sorry i love you more than you could ever know, only if i knew what i do now then.

Save me

i was so inlove with a girl named jane. back then no one can separate us even her mom.. her mom wont approve to our relationship because i was nothing compared to them. i wasn't every girls dream i had no car and no cash. all i can offer her.. is my love,my faithfulness, and my life. we were together for 4 years. sadly it didnt last longer than i thought it would.. she left me. the day before my birthday she dumped me. i dropped down on my knee begging her to change her mind, i was so hurt. i cried so hard but she didnt even care.she said that she fell out of love for me. a few days passed i still cannot believe that we were not together anymore. i gathered my strength and courage to face her mom and ask about her. i went to her house and find her chatting with someone online, gladly her mom wasn't home, i had the chance to talk to her, begging and kneeling infront of her still it didnt work.. she touched my face and said. see him.. (a guy on the screen of her computer) he's jeff and i met him online, we are chatting for almost a year now and last week we realized that we are ready to meet in person and have a relationship together, and i had to do this. this is for my family and for me too.. i am really sorry. do you like him?, i asked. whats not to like?, she replied. i had a mixed emotion back then i was so angry and so hurt with what she said. im not numb if thats what she thinks. those words of her killed me. i snapped, i stood up and went for a glass of water. instead of drinking it i poured it on the monitor and cpu of the computer. and she was so scared of what i just did and yelled for her dad. i took control of everything i hugged and kissed her so hard because i knew it would be the last time that i could feel her in my arms and on my lips. then his dad came running after me. i was ready to face everything that he got. i stopped running and faced him. he punch me right on my left eye and i fell. i stood up again and yelled is that all you got?? and punch me back on the ground,stood up again and shouted! kill me you bitch!!(pointing to jane) i have given everything to you! my life! my friends! my family! me!! you are everything to me! you are my life! i have nothing else. i have no more friends thanks to you! and now my family hates me thanks to u again! and ull just leave me with nothing??? i am sorry if i haven't given you expensive things but i still make everything special for all occasions that we had. i just cant understand why you wont even hesitate to give me another chance. and fell on my knees again.. her parents listened to everything i said and they can really see how i felt for their daughter. before i left, i asked permission to hug her and apologize.. and left her a note saying: you are my life pls save me.

i waited for hours, days, weeks for her reply.. and realized that their will be no one to save me at all. after a year.. i have been in and out of the hospital trying to save myself from my misery...now.. im still on the process of recovery.. trying to get myself busy with online games and everything. it has been 2 years...im still not over her.

_would someone please save me?

Love Conquers All

I'm 18 and the guy I like is almost 13. We met about nine months ago at air cadets and didn't really start getting to know each other until about four or five months ago. I knew that he liked me from the way that he acted around me and he called me pretty all the time. It was kind of obvious.

He somehow got my phone number and started calling me and it kind of went from there. We became close and I knew that he really liked me and I liked him too and I decided to ask him out. So I did and we went out for about five days before I got up the courage to tell my mom and she told me to dump him because she thought I was making a mistake in going out with someone 6 years younger than me. So I did dump him and he cried because he loved me so much. We didn't even get to see each other in those five days because he lives an hour away from me and we only have cadets once a week. We decided to become friends with benefits. 

We've become really close now and we want to go out again we're just not sure when we should go out. His mom told him that she was OK with us going out. My mom thinks he's too young. It's not fair. She doesn't even like us hanging together too much. He's more mature than a lot of my friends. I've lost a couple friends because of this because they judged us and thought it was wrong that I was in love with a 12 year old. Still I've stayed with him through everything because we love each other and if my friends can't support us then they weren't really friends to begin with. It's been hard to stay together but we've managed. A few people (one of my ex boyfriends for one) have called me a paedophile but I don't care what other people think and neither does he. He loves me and wants to marry me when he's 18 and I'm 24. We have 5 years to go, I just know we can make it. We truly love each other. 

Age used to matter to me but now it doesn't obviously. I just wish people would stop judging us and let us be together in peace and leave us alone. Thanks for reading my story.

My Angel

My life has been painful, I have lived in a home that was full of anger. My parents had an unhealthy relationship that soon ended up in a divorce. But even after the divorce it got worse. My mom and dad were in the phase of now its my time to enjoy life. My parents put me and my brother on the back burner. It was hard especially for my brother. But both of us turned to friends for support. During this time I also had a dream that someone would save me from all my pain. I wished I would have someone to lean on, I searched long and hard for it. I dated more than enough people, most of the time it would barely last 3 months. For 5 years of my life I tried hard to find myself. I was the rebellious teen, an artist with a dark side. My sadness was always around, even though I had a happy personality towards others. I was sad inside, I felt like no one really understood me.  

I moved away with my mom and began studying at a different high school. I met many wonderful people. I met this guy named Roman, we began to date. He was European, from Ukraine. The parties were amazing, full of fun, everyone was friendly. Me and Roman didn't really work out but we stayed friends. I dated a couple other friends from the group but nothing ever really clicked. I stayed friends with everyone and would party with everyone from time to time. During the time I spent partying with the group, I would always see this attractive tall guy who would come around, his name is Roman also. His nick name was Zman. I never really associated with him though. I would see him from afar, and the very few times i spoke to him, he seemed very full of himself. I am not the type to associate myself with people like that. Anyways I heard rumours he made some girl cry, I thought he was gay. He seemed like the type because he never really associated with girls, well when I would see him. 

Anyways I never would really pay attention to him until one day. It was the day my mom was going to get married. I was all dressed up a bit too early so i decided to check my email. I noticed on facebook, I received a poke from this guy Roman. When I viewed the photo I realized it was Zman. He msged me asking me if I wanted to come to a party on the weekend. I replied sure, I thought he was inviting me to add more girls to the party I never thought he had any interest in me. I had a car that weekend since my parents were on their honeymoon. I was forbidden to take the car. But I did anyways. I couldnt miss out on this party. I gave Zman a ride, in the car he explained his ex gf would be at the party. I was worried people would get the wrong idea about me and Zman. There was nothing going on. During the party I tried to stay away from Zman, because of the fact his ex girl friend was at the party, I didn’t want to be involved. Unfortunately Zman followed me everywhere I would go at the party. I am a smoker and he came outside and smoked with me even though he is not a smoker. I could tell he was a non smoker, I thought it was cute. I started to get the hint he had a thing for me. He ended up to be nothing like I thought he was. He is the most romantic kind hearted person I have ever met. That night he told me how amazing he thought I was, deep down I had the instinct to go for it. I am so happy I did. He is truly my angel, we are engaged now and my heart is full of love for him. It will always be, I always spent so much time looking for Mr. Right, but he found me before I did.