I guess im not good enough....

Hi. okay my ex-boyfriend is amazing.. i obviously still love him. we started going out 1.12.08 and i broke up with him because there was rumors going around saying that he was in love with my best friend. he swore to god he wasn't and yet two days later they started going out and just left me out in the cold. so a few weeks go by and they break up. he asks me out again and of course i say yes... but then people tell him i was in love with his best friend and he broke up with me. we both go through about a month of being sad and depressed until we finally sit down and talk it over. we were going out.. again. a few months passed by and we just both kinda...stopped loving each other. so once again we break up.and then two days later he asks out my best friend. that made me realize how much i needed him and how much i loved him. i couldn't tell her cause she looked so happy and i didn't wanna be the one to screw it all up. i was just hoping she would see how much pain i was going through but she didn't. for the two months they were going out i couldn't hang out with her i couldn't look at her i couldn't even talk to her without her finding out i was in love with her boyfriend. after they broke up i just gave up..gave up on him and gave up trying to be with him.the summer came and i kept calling him because i felt like he was mad at me and i couldn't stand it.then the new school year came and we became best friends. he is currently dating another one of my best friends but i am fine with it because i realized being friends is probably the best thing that's ever happened to me.i know its confusing but now i can look at him without wondering when we are gonna have to go through another painful break up& just knowing that makes it amazing! and it is my fault because i was chasing after a guy who only hurt me. but after all life is too short to be anything by happy!

My amazing boyfriend, and Me!

i met up with a close friend of mine, i hadn't met him before face 2 face but spoke to him on a daily basis over the Internet and sometimes phone. The day and night we spent together was very nice we got on very well and enjoyed one another company dearly!

I went home the following day and he had given me pure butterflies i had a massive smile on my face and the excitement was over powering me.

We both decided to make us official and ever since then our love has grown so so deeply. 

We have been through rough patches and some of them seemed like i wouldn't be able too hold onto him, and that i would loose him love.

But shockingly he stood by me! 

I was shocked, he believed in me and didn't leave me feeling alone again,

i cant ever ever thank him enough for that.

Right now things are looking amazing for us and i can not wait for the future we have with one another. 

I have also decided that on my 16th birthday this year in June i am moving in with him, 

Some may say i'm too young 

But truly i believe this is something i need to succeed in as now i have his love i don't ever ever think i could live without it.

I believe in him

and i will stand by him and be the reason for his happiness as well as i can be, 

I will NEVER do wrong by him as he is my world and my everything. 

In some aspects i am scared of what will happen to us as recovering from our split would rip me apart inside by you have too take chances in life as you only live once. 

Best of luck for me and him. although i doubt we need it. 

Big thankyou too him for making me feel amazing 

I love him so so so much. 

And too any of you others in a relationship,

stick at it best of luck 

Eme.