He's My Hero....

My names Ashley Boisvert, and my love story started in foster care. I started foster care in the middle of November.

I felt as if my life was at the lowest point it could get, and i was pregnant. My foster sisters were always being judge-mental about everything. I started school one week after i got into foster care, I was a sophomore in Chanute High School.

My first few weeks there were uncomfortable but only because i did not no anybody. About a month after i got in Chanute everybody knew that i was pregnant. And every day it got harder and harder to talk to people cause they knew i was pregnant. At that time i was crushing on Dillon Williams, but i had a feeling he wouldn't speak to me because i was pregnant so i just stayed away.

Day by day people would start stories about me when they didn't know me. I only had a few people that would ever talk to me, I got sick of it. On December 13th I wrote a note to my crush, Dillon. I was scared to tell him who I was so I put your secret admirer at the end, and i had him guess who i was, I was planning to tell him the night of homecoming.... But it didn't work out that way. Dillon guessed who i was the day I gave him the note, It scared me cause then he probably knew all the rumors about me.

about my love...my story i never told anyone..

i truly believe that there is one person for each single one of us...

-some are lucky to meet, love and live with the love of their life all their life..

-some are lucky to meet that person....but for some reason lose them, either because of someone else, or accident

-some are lucky to meet that special person..love them for the rest of their life, but unlucky to be knowing that they can never be with the person they love...

my story started 5 years ago, when i met Chris..it was not love at first sight, neither lust at first sight...it was only because i promised my friend to meet Chris one day, because he was asking her for my number for more than 3 months..my plan was to go out with him for a coffee and never see him again...

But i guess you never know where your life takes you...You plan, something totally opposite will happen...

I went out with him, and for some strange reason i had the feeling i have never experienced before...i had a feeling that i had to run away...somewhere far away..but..i didn't..

i stayed, and we went on a date again the next day, and the day after....we got to know each other, he made me feel special, and i even started to like him..and plus Chris was always gentleman - very rare these days...Until one day day he told me, he loved me,and couldn't be without me, to which i answered that i was starting to have feelings for him too...( but inside i knew it was not true).I guessed that some people just need more time, until they show their feelings. and probably i was one of them..i cared but i didn't love him..I thought that was how it should be, the love will catch up on me later..because he was after all very attentive, nice,funny and plus he loved me...

Chrsi became very attached to me, and i liked the attention at first...So whenever he told me he loved me, i said to him..me too..I thought that little lie can not hurt anyone, and i will eventually love him too...Because he cared about me soo much, and i could see how happy he was to be with me, i decided to make him happy all the time..I didn't care about myself, as long as he was happy, that was good enough for me..So after 6 months of our reationship, when he asked to move in together, and at that time i was looking for a place for myself too,i agreed..Our relationship was very good, we had little fall outs, just like anyone else, but in general we were happy...so i continues in my little lies....

we had our first anniversary together, then second, third..and just before our forth anniversay together, something happened im my life.......
 

i met someone..i haven't actually met him, i knew him for a bit longer...but one conversation have changed my life forever...
 

and the rest i'm going to have to finish tommrow

A love story started in a simple "Hi, can you be my textmate?"

back last august 2007, since I was 4th year here was this radio plugging in of numbers on cellphone to have a friend. so ngtry ako. then one of this almost 30 txters who text me was Him (my boyfriend) and we became good friends easily because we have lots of same likes and dislikes and he told me many things that may consider him to be rich which i was not sure so I didnt believe him at once and I always tell to my self "[i]He's just kidding >:(...[/i]" and then after that month he just informed me by text that he had an ulcer that should be in a surgery immediately.. in my pity for him I let my self to be her girlfriend(and he became my first boyfriend!) even what I had planned is to break him up after he is fine already ...but it didn't happen instead I'm sickly in loved with him! I don't know but whenever I hear his voice since the time he called me on my phone, his voice was like a melody in my ears. I admit it his voice was that cute even he lives in La Union before he studies in Australia, his voice was not that [i]Ilocano[/i] of native accent. Then we really spent every day on texting and calling each other. Everyday he will greet me good mornings, I love You's, mwaaaahhh, ingatz, and some sugary sweet quotes of love.. he would even let the pleasure to reload my phone if there's no retailer loading stations in our school.  then last year June 23, he finally flew to Australia to study medicine, he was the one who puts me into the idea for taking up nursing beacause he told me that we would be really a perfect match: A doctor and a Nurse. at first of taking up his last words on the cellphone [i] keep my self from crying but after more minuted while he was telling me these words: "taje care always and remember always that I love you I won't find any woman in my life because you are the only girl who I loved. please don't let other boys get near you and the worst , court you or else I will die of loosing you. you are my life now. I need to go bhaby, Don;t worry I'll be back..." those lines remind in my mind and heart.. then there we are..just chatting on our ym's, commenting each other on our friendsters. he's kinda mysterious because : 1st i never seen him yet even we're already a year na. 2nd: he never used a cam on our chat at ako lang ang may cam.(you may find it unfair guys.)   but even he was that mysterious he wont forget our anniversary. last sept. 15, 2008 he didn't come back even becausei his family were a rich clan, its eventually hard to travel bck form overseas so he sent money to his sister here in the Philippines and He told his sister to buy me gifts for our anniversary and deliver those to me by their cousin. so we met Julie(my bf's cousin)in our school with a bouquet of star gazers, a box of cadbury  assorted chocolates, a white teddy bear as the size of a square pillow and a silver ring with a diamond in the middle(sound like an engagement ring?). I was really surprised to that. he even gave me a belated gift last may 29, 2008 as a deliver also by her sister at the first place. that's where i get His recent picture at that time. then the last thing he gave before our relationship gets complicated was when I lost my remaining 300 pesos on my boarding house and when we chat he scolded me that I shouldn't have chat anymore that time because I'm just wasting my money but i told him that I'm not wasting anything  just for him. Then he forced me to take the money he will tell his sister in La Union to send me in a money remittance center which was 250 pesos.(he just told me that he wants to give me more than that like 500 pesos but he knew i won't really accept his offer if he will make it higher than that . so there i am, thanking him for all his kindness and love. but the day came last October 4 when he never did chat with me. he never even made a phone call either long distance or in the messenger itself. So i began to be angry at first, then felt sorry, then felt, lonely and send some message on his messenger saying sorry for all what I have told him lately(because I send him some  kind of this: "do you still love me?" I think you have a new girlfriend there that's why you already forgot your girlfriend here in Phil." so i changed all those stuff until I found out from her cousin in La union that he had an internal bleeding which led to his serious condition in the hospital and confinement for about 3 months from now and I don't know how long will it take for him to .and now I'm always hoping that he will be ok.at first I felt strong to wait for him but when I received his late message in my messenger saying like this" you know, you have shouldn't wait.you know why? because I already hurt you so much. I think I should set you free to make things fine..when I read those. I felt my tears are coming out of my eyes.   I cried all I can when i reach to my bedroom.why does he need to tell me those that now I'm letting my self to hold still in our relationship.Now 3 questions are playing in my mind: is he tired of me?, is he's out of the hospital (or) is he ok now?, and the worst, does he fell in love with someone there? ouch! it was. I felt my self That I want to get a knife and stab my heart now...how can I solve this that there are 2 meaning for what he send me either  he felt sorry for me because he thought Im getting tired of waiting or maybe he doesn't need me anymore because he found a girl there who was better than me..where can this story lead?