From a Distance

ME and my Parent Went to The UK For a vacation. When We got there we got settled in a hotel , then I went in the lobby to get a drink. We I was in the lobby there was this guy.He was  visiting his ill uncle in the hotel who was visiting the UK. When i was going back up to my room, I bumped in to him.He hurried to help me up then asked if i was okay. Then we ended up talking . Then I ran up to my room and told my parents that I was going with a boy to the restaurant next door and that he was going to show me around. Before they had the chance to say no I ran out .

When  it was time to  go back home I told I told my parents that I had to tell him Bye. Then when I called him he told me he loved me. We traded emails and we already had each others numbers.

When I got back home I checked my email there was exactly 37 emails from him. Saying he missed me and loved. 

I never heard from him for 2 months then he called I said Hello and then he said he was at my door waiting to kiss me and He want ed to ask me something.I went to my door and the he was he was on one knee and he asked me to marry him. Of course I said yes, then he jumped up and kissed me. then we got married at 18. My parents were mad that I moved to The UK to be with him . 

But they visit us and we visit them. ME and Braden now have one 3month old. And are expecting another baby girl. 

My true love

It all started at high school i feel in love with this boy his name is James and he was so nice to me then he met trinity i was heartbroken i know that it was too good to be true so i let him love her and spoke to him know and then. Now i only ever see him on school days because he is with Trinity but he cant do anything to stop my loving him but i wish him the best of luck and happy new year. 

all the best
Courtney. 

Love on the internet

Something really strange has happened to me. Something I would have never believed, if someone told me before. It all started with a registration on a penpal-webpage. No flirt or dating side. I joined it just for fun to find someone I can write with. Then one day there was this insertion by a young woman, who searched for just the same as me. She had no picture on it, neither did I. So I wrote to her into the blue. And she answered. Her words had something magic. I do not know why, but for some reason I felt attracted by this woman from the first moment on. We wrote regularly and shared all our thoughts and feelings. The topics of the e-mails became more and more personal. It was so easy to write her about intimate things, because I had the feeling of knowing her for years. I became more and more curious about what she may look like. This woman, who I have already liked so much without having seen her. I will never forget the day, when I had her foto in my Mailbox. My heart beat faster when I opened it. Then the most lovely and beautiful smile hit me, that I have ever seen in my life. From that moment on I cannot wait to meet her. I have told her that I like her picture and she said the same about mine. 

So I can tell that I have butterflies in my stomach because of a woman, I have never seen in person. We will meet for the first time in February 2009, if everything turns out the way I planned. I never believed that this is possible. All I can say is: Thanks to the internet.

Until next time,

Cornflake

love..the mystery it gives...

As I sit on the floor having my own time with the silence of  the night while the snow flakes falls quietly into the ground,there was this question that keeps on knocking into my mind..."why does love hurts?" I am aware that I am not the only one who thought about this obnoxious fact,but really...why does it hurts???

I am no longer a newbie about love and been into couple of relationship that during those time i believed it's almost perfect...I can still remember the first one which gave me the feeling of having butterflies on my tummy,or that time when he held my hand and I felt like I was the most happiest girl there is on that moment,and oh yeah you remember the time that you feel like the world stops from spinning?or how about that feeling of being on the place they called cloud nine?Those feelings are real we felt it  but they're all just too good to be true to lasts...that's what i realized now (but it's really hard to wake up from this dreamy feeling)...so you experience that? and after wards what? you're going to devote yourself to your love interest,doing things even those things that you hated to do just to prove your love,commit yourself faithfully and worship them,putting them into pedestal, offering and showering them the purity of your love that most of the time we forgot to leave even a single strand of self loving to ourselves...when we fall in love we always to this: thinking of our gf/bf first before ourselves,the question is...is it worth it?or to rephrase it,does some of them deserve it?

We felt love that sometimes makes us blind to notice that we fell for the wrong person but since we believe to what we feel,we just keeps ignoring those signs that they are not the right one,instead we keep pushing more to make the relation works,we strive to prove that it is really what we think it is and in the end we only suffers.We can't avoid failed relationships so we have to be broad minded when it comes to commitment but lets face it,no matter how imperfect our relationship was,it still stings once it's ended,maybe because we have some regrets,the what ifs and the truth that no matter how we avoid or prevent it,we are all  victims of it...specially when we thought that we're in love with the person but the fact is we're just in love with love. 

I've been there,and i was badly hurt,since then i was so cautious when it comes to love matters.Most often i thought,can i run away from it? Or can I just hibernate to be safe from it? Or shield myself with numbness to become exemption and deprive myself from love itself? But time came that i realized this..."I am no fool"..I am just wishful thinker...being hurt by love is tiring...yet again once it knocks I cant just move away now and ignore it instead i welcome love with open arms,love aint that bad all the time,right?This time whatever it takes,I am a willing victim.

...and reviewing this blog i am writing right now leaves me with dumb founded reactions...i cant really point out which is which...all i can understand now is we are all victims of love and we can do nothing with it not to be one...when it comes to love we can't say no once it strucks,the more you run away from it the persistent it chases you,the more you ignore the feeling the more it haunts you..that's how powerful it is....to sum it all,go... let yourself get involve in love but dont overdo it...hahaha...  now.... I stop myself from whinning about it...(sigh)....i got tired from running...now i give my self in...tonight...i will embrace love once more...

Good times lost

I had a boyfriend, a really good one. But one day when we were meeting for a date, i think, so what i heard, i was hit by a car. People say i lost a lot of blood and my injury was serious. The only thing i remember from that time was that i only wanted to see my boyfriends face. And, that was the last memory i remembered. I woke up 3 months later. The doctors said i was in a coma. There was a person i thought i never seen before. It was my boyfriend. But at that time, the doctors said i forgotten about him, amnesia. He was the only person i had forgotten. The doctor said because he was someone i thought of regularly i forgot him. The most important thing in my life was forgotten. 1 year past, my boyfriend was still visiting me, it seemed like he loved me a lot. Everyday, i would wait for him to visit. The only thing on my mind was him. I fell in love for the first time, so i thought at that time.

One day, i was waiting for him to visit me. I waited and waited. That night, i felt sad, thinking that he got sick of waiti:Lng. I recieved a phone call that night. From my boyfriends father saying that he was missing. I rushed to his house, crying while driving. When i arrived i saw my boyfriend there. He was staring at me, while i was covered in tears. He said, "i hoped you would come. If you still cared about me you would of came. But, i wasn't expecting you to cry. I never want you to cry. I was only hoping that you would come because you still had feelings for me." I cried even more. But i knew i loved him. 4 years now. I'm still with him, even though i forgot my memories, i remade them with him from that day.

I just wanted to tell everyone my story,

Knowing the truth

When i first met him, i thought he were my everything. His first sweetest promise was not to leave me. Never would him. Yes i thought he was my first love. Deeply loving him. Been years with him right now but many things just change. The way he treat me and the way he pampered me, all change. I couldnt find the reason why. We were happy back than. Laughter fill us all. Was never a time to cry nor get hurt. But after a long journey with him, i started to notice the tears kept on dripping down from my cheeks. How hurt could i get? Firstly, knowing that he lie to me over and over again. Giving one chance wasnt enough,three? How many chances do guys really need? At the time, i was pregnant, yes his child. Giving birth to the baby was a hard thing to do. And family wouldnt allow me to go out anymore. At that time, i knew he was playing behind my back. When one day i was out with my sister, i saw him with another girl. How hurt can i really get? Drowning myself with tears.

Couldnt really understand how things work down here. Afraid of falling in love again. Haish. 

Love is very strong

I had a grandpa who was 86 well we all loved him very much but, not as much as my grandma.Well one day my grandpa past away. when he did my grandma was in the hospital and when we told her he had past she started breathing real hard her blood pressure went up so high. she was put in ICU for the night around 3:56 a.m. her doctor came in the waiting room and told us she had pasted. And that she was holding a piece of paper and he gave it to us there was a picture of my granpa in it and a note that was from there first anniversary, it said:

"Hello my darling,

Wow its been a year. I know im here in France for a business trip, but I will send you a rose for the rest of our lives telling you reasons why i love you.

Love,

Your best friend