Cousins Vagina

I'm a 19 year old male. My older cousin is 26. I was home for thanksgiving at my parents house. It was the first time I had seen her in about 10 years, she used to babysit me and my siblings when I was younger. She always told me I was so sweet to her and that I was her favorite of all my siblings. So we were drinking a LOT of tequila and she and I were lying in the same bed, completely smashed, after everyone had gone to sleep just talking. Catching up, and getting to know each other again. It was getting late and we decided to sleep, too lazy and too drunk to leave the bed we were in we kind of snuggled up close to each other and fell into an uneasy slumber. I woke to my hand on her leg, and lying really close behind her with an uncontrollable erection. Still

hazy from the booze and it being the middle of the night I started to feel her face and she woke and we talked all through the night, massaging each other and hugging. Soon enough I was really feeling the erection and needed some more action. I was still very reluctant because she was my cousin and we were in my parents house. I finally got over my inhibitions and just kissed her and things got more serious. We made out for a while and I felt her up massaging her breasts and butt. However every time I went to feel her vagina she stopped me. I was too drunk to take and hint and continued to try. We moved into the bathroom and I took her top off and started to take her pants off, she asked me if I had a condom. I didn't have one. So nothing happened that night.

The next weekend I was back at my mother's house and she was there again. We were drinking again and once more everyone else was asleep, we were in the living room, on the hideaway bed. I was finding that I had an erection again and I just started kissing her. And feeling her up, she finally let me feel her

vagina. She was so wet, which only turned me on more. I wanted to have sex with her so badly. She finally grabbed me and put me inside her and we had sex all night. It was wonderful. For the next few nights it was much of the same, trying not to get caught by my parents and siblings or her husband and children.

I'm in love with her, and she's in love with me. We've had sex on several occasions without a condom, but she's on birth control. We both plan on doing it more because it's so much fun. I think what makes it fun is that it's so illicit, it's not something that either one of us has ever done before. I don't know that we can keep doing this forever but I really want to, the sex is good and we're very compatible so far as I can tell. We're so insane about this that I flew on a weekend from where I live to meet her just for a couple days, I didn't tell anyone about it. Sometimes I just want to tell people that I did something awesomely awful.